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Wednesday, 30 January 2008

Smile Though Your Heart Is Affected

This entry is something I haven't written about before...think mushy bullsht. I can't drop names though, but I need to let it all out. *emo mode on*

Back in the time when dinosaurs ruled the earth, I met this guy that I am going to call "Mr. Honeydukes". I haven't paid attention to him that time because I didn't even know that he's there. But when he spoke up, that's the time when I actually took notice. His noisy but amazing friends introduced us to each other and that's where it all started.

Months passed and people noticed that their clique and I are really tight because we always represent(!). I heard shitloads of lies about him but I didn't care because I saw that there is something special in Mr. Honeydukes...that nobody else saw.

The catch is, he thinks of me only as a joker of the clique. Like, whatever! That's OK, that's how he noticed me...and I probably was just fangirling. So when I became too saturated with my studies and he in his own field, we rarely saw each other. I only see him accidentally in places I'd least expect...and in a state that I look so fugly and wasted. This went on for a year and we already have our own separate ways.

Fast Forward to 2008:
Two days ago a friend told me something about Mr. Honeydukes and Fleet Enema that's going to happen this May. I couldn't believe my ears because he's too young, maybe? I thought Souljaboy was joking...but he wasn't. They're getting married! For real. Seriously.

I'm happy for him. But...Ay. Why like dut?

...na-hurt ako. Kahit di naman dapat.

*emo mode off*

OMG. I'm so freaking EMO...this better wear out soon.

Saturday, 26 January 2008

Not Sure If I Still Love NY

When I am asked what are my reasons in going abroad, I always say that I have many. They often ask me to enumerate some and I do so. Those guys think that I am joking when they hear that one of my reasons aside from the humanitarian and financial chuva is: gusto kong mag-trenchcoat at mag-boots. O diba, it's so superficial? Syemps, you don't get to do that here in the Perlas ng Silangan...you'd look like you're hooked on crack.

That's why I kept my eye on New York, Michigan, and DC. They have the meanest winters, as I was told. But I love to be in NY the most, not because Future USMD is there now but because of the mix of cultures so there is respect...and I get to wear trenchcoats and boots there.

Na-contact ko na yung Nursing Service ng NYU Medical Center before and they are willing to help me process my papers but according to them, I should do something about my working visa. Woo-hoo, hello retrogression! Kung kailan wala nang CGFNS Qualifying exam sa NY State, saka naman lumala ang visa retrogression...and it keeps on getting worse day by day. Peste. Now with all the ruckus brought by the visa retrogression, I'm starting to get totally discouraged to work in the US...even after working here in the Mole of Asia's territory.

That's the reason why I'm not doing anything for my CGFNS and NCLEX thingy even if my dad gave me the money for it. So friends, classmates and countrymen: don't ask me anymore about my NCLEX shiznit because now you know why.

And now, I'm not sure if I'd still love to be in NY.

Almost Rusty

I've said before that my first patients ever since I became a registered nurse are our cats. Now, my almost rusty skills were put to the test when Carissa asked me to come with her when she was called to attend to a student during the Out to Groove Dance Contest a couple of days ago. I thought the patient was sprained by the way she was decribed. Turns out, she was having difficulty of breathing, and was hyperventilating.

It was kind of difficult because we don't have any paraphernalia wit uhs. We just have to improvise. That's why its a bit awkward to make the patient breathe into a plastic bag. The situation isn't even toxic because Car-car and I know what to do. It's just the patient who's hard to deal with. She refused to let us inform her relatives about what happened and she also refused to take her to the hospital when she said that "my chest hurts".

But anyway, all's well. Thank God. I thought everything I learned went straight to my unconscious.

BTW, now I'm considering Emergency Nursing aside from OR Nursing.

Wednesday, 23 January 2008

Another Long Overdue Tag

This one's from JC.

1. 8 things I'm passionate about:
- I have so many things I am passionate about and I don't know where to start.

2. 8 things I say often:
- Sh*t, Crap, Ngek!, Soshal!, Hello, Ano ba?, Shut up, Eew.

3. 8 books I’ve read recently (in no particular order)
- Love in the Time of Cholera (Gabriel Garcia-Marquez), Gossip Girl: You Know You Love Me (Cecily von Ziegesar), Medical-Surgical Nursing (Joyce Black et al.), For One More Day (Mitch Albom)...yun pa lang.

4. 8 things to do before I die
- Travel and see the world. Yun ang gusto ko talaga.

5. 8 songs I could listen to over and over again
- Jusco, ang dami niyan...

6. 8 things that attract me to my friends
- Weird question. Can't answer.

7. 8 things I learned in the last year
1) New nurses don't get jobs easily especially during retrogression period.
2) True friends stab you in the front because only fake friends stab your back.
3) I am not stupid...just mediocre.
4) Mediocre people rock...sabi nga ni Mike "Uring magsasaka, pangunahing pwersa".
5) Titles don't measure up a person's goodness.
6) The real world is chaotic.
7) Once people know you're a nurse, expect their response to be "abroad" related
8) Nakakataba ang pagiging bum. Crap.

8. 8 People I appreciate enough to tag
- As usual, wala akong maisip.

If you’ve been tagged, here’s what you do:

Copy down the 8 questions above and answer them at your own blog, including a list of 8 people you’ll, in turn, tag (include links). In your post, mention the person who tagged you and a link back to their site. Notify each person that you’ve tagged them so they know it’s time to play, then post a comment here that you’ve completed the tag.

Long Overdue

Tag From BB ANNE
1. At what age do you wish to marry? About 28-29.
2. What color do you like most? Blue
3. If one of your friends will leave and migrate,what would be the last thing you’ll say to him/her? "Keep in touch, I'm just an e-mail away. I'll see you soon"
4. Where is the place that you want to go the most? Anywhere quiet and peaceful.
5. Which part of you that you love the most? Nose
6. When you encounter a sad moment what would you do? Mope around
7. What do you want to do now? Uhh, work?!
8. Who is Jesus Christ in your life? Big Brother.
9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her? I dunno
10. Why are you answering this tag? Eh, because I was tagged.
11. How many children do you want to have when u get married? 2-3
12. Till now, what is the moment that you regret the most? Wala naman
13. Which type of person do you hate the most? Traitorous scums
14. If you had one wish what would you wish for? Sana magkatrabaho na ako. Lol!
15. Song you hate? Anything sung by Kim Chiu
17. Do you believe in soul mates? No
18. It’s already 2008. Do you have a new year’s resolution? No, I don't do resolutions.
19. Name of that someone you love. Marami akong love...can't say their names.
20. What on earth are you here for? To bring change for the better.

Tag from ANNA
1. Start at ’start copy here’.
2. Put an X on the things you’ve done.
3. Tag how-many-[X]s people.
4. Post with title "I’ve done ___*how-many-[X]* of 35 stupid things".

*start copy here*
[ ] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking.
[ ] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking.
[x] You have ran into a glass/screen door.
[ ] You have fell out/off of a moving vehicle.
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, then people gave you weird looks.
[ ] You have ran into a tree.
[ ] You have tried to lick your elbow.
[X] You just tried to lick your elbow.
[ ] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same rhythm.
[ ]You just tried to sing them.
[x] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.
[x] You have choked on your own spit.

[ ] Your hair is/was blond.
[ ] You’ve put metal in the microwave.
[x] You have accidentally caught something on fire.
[x] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose/eyes.
[x] You have caught yourself drooling when you wake up.
[x] You’ve fallen asleep in class.
[x] You have tripped over your own feet.

[x] Sometimes you just stop thinking.
[x] You are telling a story and forget what you were talking about.
[ ] You have forgotten to breathe.
[ ] You are often told to use your "inside voice".
[x] You use your fingers to do simple math
[ ] You have eaten a bug
[X] You are taking this test when you should be doing something else
[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out.
[x] You’ve looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand.

[ ] You sometimes post bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you dont.
[x] You break a lot of things.
[ ] Your friends know not to use big words around you.
[x] You sometimes tilt your head when you’re confused.
[x] You have fallen out of your chair before.
[ ] When you’re lying in bed, you try to find pictures or words in the texture of the ceiling.
[x] The word "uh" is used many times a day.

*end copy here*

Feel free to tag yourselves.

Tuesday, 22 January 2008

Wishes for '08

Well, we're halfway done with January and it may be too early to wish until I die but here are 5 things that I am keeping my eye on for this year, both material and non-material. This list might change over the next few months, who knows?

BTW, this tag came from Anna and Jewel.
1. A Job - You guys know this. I've been keeping my eye on this since good kcI passed the effing board exams. Our batch is still affected by the aftermath of the legendary "June 2006 Leakage" so hospitals are really strict in accepting applicants. I want to practice my profession because the four year preparation isn't that easy. 

2.  Peace of Mind - from: (a) Rumormongers, behave! I had too much of them last year so I hope 2008 is a quiet year for me; (b) Competition whores. I do things for myself and not to top off anyone else that's why it surprises me to find my name dragged in the web of the I-am-better-than-you game. What a bunch of weirdos...

iPod3.  iPod - My trusty ol' phone served as my music player on the go for 2 years. Since it's battery life is starting to decrease, I think it's time to get a separate gadget for music since I have no intention of changing my phone unit. I still can't decide if I'd get the Nano or the Classic. The Classic's memory is OA but the new set of 8G Nano is almost about the same price with that of the 80G Classic. Whatevs. I'm still on the process of thinking.

Nurse Kit4.  Nurse Kit - Some stuff I used as a student is now passed on to Charmaine. I want to have my own in preparation for my #1 wish...because I am for un-genericism, I have to pick out not so common stuff like printed BP cuffs or brightly colored steth tubes. The usual colors here are so blah.

5. Less chaotic Philippines - Can't buy that anywhere...but we deserve this, don't we? Enough of the crazy traffic, abnormal economy, cat massacres, jeepney strikes and that sort of thing...kaya ating isigaw: "Uring magsasaka, pangunahing pwersa". Connection ng sigaw? I dunno.

Those are my "priority" wishes. Saka na lang ang new digiCam, phone housing change, more bags and shoes, pag-aartista more books, and upgrades for Acer.

I tag whoever wants himself/herself to be tagged. Can't think of anyone in particular to tag.

Sunday, 20 January 2008

'Tis A Sad Day

As a cat and dog lover, it hurts me a lot to see documentaries on TV about canines and felines being tortured and slaughtered. I thought it is too much but this is something I can't take:

Cat Massacre in Dasmariñas Village
Click it to watch the news report

On December 16, 2007, 29 cats in Dasmariñas Village in Makati were shot to deat using air guns. To find out more about the cat massacre, read here. Mind you, the photos may not be safe for breakfast, lunch and dinner.

Stray cats may be annoying to some but killing them for no apparent reason is just unethical. The cats that were killed are taken care of by Compassion and Responsibility for Animals (CARA) Philippines and is awaiting adoption. People talk about human rights but what about animal rights? This event mirrors the sorry state of animal rights in our country.

Lookit! Our former cat, Muning (first photo), used to be stray. We found it stuck on the ceiling of our storage room. There are no mice running around because of it...even if Muning died a year ago, our house is still mouse-free because of her kid, Evil Kitty (one of the kittens in the first photo and the cat in second photo).

Whoever did that must be taken into custody and extensive psychoanalysis must be done. I remember an article in the New England Journal of Medicine that I have read for our Psyche class says that persons who showed violence towards animals are also vulnerable of doing acts of violence towards humans too.

So to whoever is behind the investigation, I do hope you'd catch the perpetrators. If I am given the opportunity to add a person in Jessica Zafra's book, "500 Persons You Meet in Hell", I'd add: Persons cruel to animals. Then their punishment would be..."They are going to be locked in a cage and they would be shot at by cats/dogs using pellet guns with infinite number of pellets" *evil laugh*.

This entry might be late but I hope this will create awareness of animal rights.

Thursday, 17 January 2008

I Am Legend

Walang pakialamanan sa title. Mag-isa lang ako sa bahay for 4 days at yung mga alaga kong pusa lang ang kasama ko.

Tomorrow's the wedding of my cousin from Roxas City, Capiz (Disclaimer: wala kaming lahing aswang). I opted not to come because I don't want to and it wouldn't be fair for my younger sister, Charmaine. She can't come because she has classes today so she's at the dorm. Me=alone.

And today is my mommy's birthday.

I'm still spooked by the creepy caller...lookit, I can't even blog properly.

Monday, 14 January 2008

Love In The Time Of Cholera

Genre: Literature & Fiction
Author:Gabriel Garcia-Marquez

Originally in Spanish: El Amor En Los Tiempos Del Cólera

From the brief introduction on the back cover, you might think that this book is just another fancy-schmancy love story. Well, you better think again. This is different from other novels that I have read because it presents the reality of love: the pain of rejection, possibility of infidelity, the perseverance of the heart so that love can conquer it all, marriage flaws, and unrequited love. Aside from that, it focused more on the events AFTER the maiden's heart has been won...which I have been looking for in a love story.

Although the narration may be too detailed for some readers, it guides the readers to actually feel and visualize the events. That's why it will go unnoticed that there are few dialogues between the characters. And the way the story was written seems to have a melancholic air but as you proceed to the final pages, the melancholia just disappears. Not only that, the book is also brimming with wisdom and a different outlook on life. Here's one of my favorite quotes:

"He allowed himself to be swayed by his conviction that human beings are not born once and for all on the day their mothers give birth to them, but that life obliges them over and over again to give birth to themselves."

Garcia-Marquez also described the characters very well so it seems like they're real people. The way that it was written, Florentino Ariza seems to me as a very somber fellow whose ideologies seemed to be based on fantasy but very determined (He waited 51 years, 9 months, and 4 days to profess his love once again to Fermina Daza after Dr. Urbino died). Fermina Daza seems to be a person who uses her head than her heart but works towards making something good come out of it. And Dr. Juvenal Urbino is a man of action and a no nonsense kind of person.

So I recommend this novel to those who appreciate a slice of reality in their literary plate...and for those who love fantasy, this might appeal to you, at some points. It has a "Happily Ever After" ending but it is presented in a different context.

Here's a link to the chapter synopsis if you want to get the essence of the story: LINK

Saturday, 12 January 2008

Not Funny

There was a caller this morning, looking for my dad...

Creepy caller: (boses galit, almost shouting) Hello, pwede ba kay Chip Met Ricardo Sirbales --seryoso, ganyan nya sinabi!
KC: Sino po ito?
Creepy caller: Hindi na mahalaga kung sino ako, basta nasaan siya?
KC: Sino nga po ito?
Creepy caller: Nasaan siya?
KC: Sino nga po ito?

Then he hung up.

Natakot ako...so I went out and locked the gate. Pretty paranoid but duh, I'm all alone this morning! Good thing I was so stubborn enough to piss him off. I didn't trust the way he talked (yelled at?) to me.

Maybe it was the same guy who called up a long time ago saying that my dad is secretly going home because he allegedly killed the ship's captain during a fight, got injured pretty bad and he's now wanted by the police. He really scared the shit out of my older sister. My mom can't be bullied, she looked for a loophole in the guy's story. And the ending is: the caller's busted! What an idiot!

...And if it did happen, the dad's agency would've called us up.

Because if it was an agency rep or a friend looking for him, he'd say his name and contact details so that my dad can contact him when he gets home. What's odd is that he said that his name isn't important. Prank caller? Not funny.

So be careful, you guys.

Friday, 11 January 2008

The Blood Type Diet

I was never a fan of whatever whoosis diets. I just eat whatever I have to eat. But here's an interesting kind of diet that I heard about from Mark: The Blood Type Diet. Natakot ako...akala ko kasi tutungga ako ng dugo. Pero joke lang kasi pampahaba lang yung mga sinabi kong yan.

Moving on...

Let's take myself as an example. I am Type B so there are certain food items allowed, because of the lectins (proteins) found in those foods will not clash with my blood type antigen. Because if the lectins and antigens clash, it's going to have a negative reaction (parang sa Battle Royale) that will target a specific body organ. I hope you guys get it because I'm having difficulty explaining in lay man's terms. Anyway, The list of food allowed for my blood type are:
  • meat (but no chicken)
  • dairy
  • grains
  • beans
  • vegetables
  • fruit
In short, almost everything. Well, not that I'm going to follow the diet. I just found it interesting enough to share...lalo na para sa mga hypochondriacs.

For more information, read on here.

Thursday, 10 January 2008


This is the last straw! I can't take it anymore...so I have to bitch about it here. Sorry.

Last January 5, our college had a Grand Alumni Homecoming. I only heard about it through my older sister, Richie and my Infonursetion (College paper) colleague, Melissa. I thought it was the fault of our college for having informed us at the last minute. Sure, I decided to show up. But then I was so na-imbyerna when I found out that almost everyone in my batch, who's still here in the third world, knew about that earlier.

I didn't attend. I admit, sumama talaga ang loob ko. I don't want to go there and act like everything's fine. Nobody from the batch even cared to tell me. As if I don't have an internet connection or a mobile phone for that matter. Hindi naman Taong Java o Taong Tabon ang kausap nila. bored blogs

Oh yeah, I kinda forgot. Smart kasi ang network provider ko and it'd hurt their texting lives if they'd have to spend a peso just to inform me of the event.


I've had my number since 1st year college and I don't intend to change it just cause Smart-is-"pang-squatter"-and-I'm-not-a-squatter thing or Globe-is-the-hottest-thing-for-the-new-generation. WHATEVER! I've kept the number simply because I'm contented with the services and because I'm not a text-whore who can't survive a day without sending or receiving the latest text joke or quote.

Like I've said, I don't like to go with fads because...ako ang nagpapauso. bored blogs

Kainez lang because the only time they think of texting me is when they are asking for my help about applying in PGH, USTH, and St. Luke's. Mukha ba akong HR ng mga ospital na yun? Mukha ba akong backer? Maybe I should make a shirt "I AM NOT THE HUMAN RESOURCE DEPARTMENT OF (insert hospital name here)". bored blogs

...kaya tara, mag-Sun na lang tayo. Maybe if we'd mass invade it, lots of cell sites might be built. *lol*

Wednesday, 9 January 2008


Being a bum made me so bored so I decided to play with my hair.

I've had this cut since October and I'm getting bored with it. Again.

I'm not contemplating on getting it cut now...maybe I'll let it grow a few inches. My new haircut/hairstyle should look professional so that it's more presentable during job interviews...unlike the one below (even if the guy is HOT).

Now, somebody give me a job before I completely freak out. *lol*

Tuesday, 8 January 2008


Yeah right. I'm feeling kinda frustrated lately. Because I've been hanging around our house for the past 6 months (GASP!), after taking the board exams and passing it. I'm doing everything I can to get a job, even from the shittiest hospital there is but to no avail.

Why is this happening to me? Whhhhyyyyy?! I graduated from a good school. I passed the freaking board exams. I even attended a few seminars to make my resume look fine but it still doesn't work its magic. As of now. 

At the highest point of my frustration, I wanted to blame the fuckers that initiated the leakage in the 2006 Nurses Licensure exams. My logic would be, if it weren't for them, it'd be easier to get a job. But I just couldn't go and tell them to go to hell. Its over and it won't help me get a job anyway.

But don't ask me about foreign exams. I'm not yet thinking about joining the exodus.

Monday, 7 January 2008

Catch Me If You Can

Remember Hospital X who turned my application down because of my mediocre board rating? Well, they have this bright idea of "re-evaluating" me again because they saw that my grades in the TOR are "exceptional" and that the training ground for my specialization (PGH-OR) is a good one. ..as they said in the email they sent me.


I don't understand. They should've done thorough evaluation of my credentials before dropping me like a hot potato. Now they're redeeming themselves by telling me how exceptional and whatever bola they can come up with so I'd work with them.

It's an opportunity, you might say. But I think it's not.

I don't like to work at an institution where in they have no definite process. As I have seen in their employment process, ang gulo. Ayoko ng magulo (masikip, mainit at madumi *LOL*).

All I can say to Hospital X, "Catch me if you can!!!!". Haha! Feeling VIP.

Thursday, 3 January 2008

Grand Alumni Homecoming- St. Paul University Manila CNAHS

Start:     Jan 5, '08 1:00p
Location:     HRM Training Center, St. Paul Manila

Hoo-hoo 50 glorious years of making our lives toxic. Chuss! Joke lang poe. Buti na lang walang Multiply si Sister Bernie. LOL!

I mean, The College celebrates its 50 years of existence...I forgot the theme.

I want to attend, kahit bum-a-licious pa rin ako. =)

Tuesday, 1 January 2008


Dahil nag-eenjoy pa ako sa buhay kuhol moment ko, eto muna: Nag-costume kami ng mga kapatid ko to celebrate the New Year. I dressed up as a Fairy Gahdchaka Belle. Dahil love ko kayo, ise-share ko ang picture ng aking kahibangan. Sana wag kayong mawalan ng ganang kumain. LOL!

Happy New Year to all.
I'll post updates in like, a couple of days or so. Thanks for all the greetings. =)

2007 Year End Shizz

Oye! A few hours from now, 2007 will be over. It's time for me (and you) to face what 2008 has in store for us. Yeah whatever. But first, let me recap the events that made 2007 one of the most memorable years of my life.

  1. Napatunayan kong hindi ako bobo. Long story but that's how it is: Hindi ako bobo. So for people who made me feel like so, here's my message: "East side, west side, GW side...BEEYATCH!"
  2. Marching is sweet. I graduated with a degree of Bachelor of Science in Nursing.
  3. Room 302 Rocks! I got really close with my ladies (Hot Baby Jocell, Sheila-tots, Seatmate Joyce, Long Hair Joyce) during the in-house review. Every night is a blast...because we have this motto: "Bawal Mag-aral Dito". Heehee!
  4. Littered with shit. I was a victim of treachery and a nasty rumor...which almost ruined me. I've forgiven the skanks perpetrators already.
  5. The license is sweeter. I passed the June 2007 Nurses Licensure Exams. Not bad for a lazy ass whose formal review is only a month before the exam...and went out on a date almost every night of that single month.
  6. Job?! Who said anything about a job? Your royal fugliness is still unemployed even if I am a registered nurse. Whoever said that nurses get employed easily here and abroad are high on crack.
  7. The Love Revolution. I met Mr. Nosebleed and we've been enduring bullshit, avoiding an angry delusional ex, keeping a sharp eye for skanks since God knows when.
  8. Me, a Teacher?! Yeah, I was offered a teaching job but I turned it down even if the financial rewards are sweet. It's because I don't want to get crappy subjects in which I really suck at...and I want to gain experiece first. Its because I want to give future nurses the education that they deserve.
  9. Miles Away. I never thought that I'd resort to a LDR. Yun lang.
  10. Dog Eat Dog World. The REAL WORLD, is freaking harsh. Bwiset...but I learned to adapt to it. It made me a better person. So what if my board rating is mediocre and not sky high? I won't let that stop me from getting a kickass job because my abilities aren't limited to that Board Rating slip from PRC. Woohoo!
I know that 2008 might be full of things that can take me by surprise. But what the heck, life has a way of kicking us hard but also has a way of making us feel that we're on top of the world. Either way, I love living my life to the fullest.

Happy New Year, everyone!